The thought of pretending revolts me, yet I can’t help but wanting to be portrait as prettier, younger, and richer. The two motivations are constantly pulling one another from the opposite end, colliding with each other, hence exhausting me. When can I let it go and be self-content, and just be me? As long as I’ve been a fashion blogger, I’ve asked the same question over and over again. I want to present a genuine self to my beloved followers and influence them in a positive way. Yet, if I can’t even be myself, authentically, how can I bring values to lives of whom dearly trusted me. It’s been a long journey, and I’m gradually getting closer to where I want to be, I hope, and thank GOD. Being an authentic self doesn’t mean I will stop pursuing the ideal self, have said, prettier, younger and richer. But, let’s not just focus on the shell. As I pursue all the above, I will make my heart prettier, younger and richer as well.